Human Since 1981, Promise.

I sit here in my living room all dolled up for the conference banquet that I am supposed to attend in about 20 minutes...it has a Mardi Gras theme, which is awesome because I am hoping it will be colorful.

Our keynote speaker this morning talked about "Who are YOU, and What do YOU want?"...we were supposed to ask this question to the person beside us three times. Each time it was asked, every single person answered differently. But I have been thinking about it all day.

Who am I and What do I want?

This simple question got me thinking about wants vs needs, and how everyone and their dog provides input from time to time in a persons life. After a breakup is usually easiest for another to weigh in or what I like to call, rubberneck.

I think that I have heard everything under the sun over the last few months about what I need. Its too the point that I cut people short, so I don't have to listen, and I change the subject. Or if I can't cut them off at the pass, I stand there and smiling vapidly, and nod, appearing totally engrossed in their profound advice.

This is a selection of what people think I need:
- to be by myself and figure things out...meaning no dates for at least half the time I was in the relationship for. Which is a stupid long time to not have contact with the opposite sex thank you very much.
- to be surrounded by friends
- to talk with a priest and turn to god
- to run more, 'never a better time to start looking to qualifying for Boston'
- to do crazy things, like skydiving (which actually sounds like fun!)
- to drink
- to go out and find a one night stand, just to get back on the horse
- to find a 'nice' boyfriend
- to start batting for the other team

I'll give you some hints as to what I NEED:
- a couch to sit on
- a steam cleaner, cause I now have white carpets
- a microwave
- more booze in the wine rack
- time with friends old and new
- and a break

But more importantly, for people to remember that I have been human since 1981, and that they need not tip toe around me. I have mild OCD, that I am sure of. One of the things I fixate on is decisions. Trust me when I say that I weighed all the options, that I really did. I very rarely make snap decisions, even in my recent 'wing it' mood. So,

Who am I?
Human Since 1981, Promise

What Do I Want?
Love, connection, friends, passion and adventure.